Hours Slide and Days Go By...

Never before have I got this kind of feeling, that everyday is full of brand new experiences and intriguing adventures, purely unexpected and full of suspense.

Still vividly present in my mind's eye is a picture I dreamt about the first night spent in Kaohsiung: All the five of us exchange students are stomping like sulky kids, suffering from some nameless homesickness in this "vaguely different" cultural environment. We suddenly become landlubbers at sea, distracted and confused as the sense of belonging diminishes. Who are we? What are we doing here? Shall we mingle as freely as possible or step back with a perfect sense of propriety? It seems the key to answering those questions is all about the strength of self-control yet none of us manages to get the whole picture.

Totally at a loss until recently... My newly met Taiwanese friend Ya-Chu invited me to a sleep-over in her house for a couple of nights and I was more than happy to be her lodger——if only you knew how great and generous that girl is, not to mention she is also adorable and cute. Lady Luck was definitely smiling upon me and therefore I owe substantial gratitude toward her timely favor! I am now way more relieved and assured than I was in those beginning days, for genuine friendship does count in my case. "Have no idea what to do when there is some spare time? Relax! Here comes Ya-Chu, an angel with shining wings..." I have to admit each time we hang out together I feel like a million dollars deposited in a safe bank, with handsome interest and solid security. I find myself free of want, because she fulfills whatever I could possibly have in mind. Sometimes when I reflect upon myself I cannot help wondering whether I am also to her satisfaction, and whether I am worthy enough of all her kindness... Love between a sweet couple is always deemed selfless but somehow I find friendship has the same magical appeal when the vibe is right. I am totally swept off my feet by this girl with her impassionate personality. Thanks Ya-Chu, and any guy who deserves your love must be the luckiest man under the sun!

And of course another person I have to bring up here is Eyan Wiggy, who hit the jackpot when deciding on Ya-Chu as his host for couch surfing(A free, Internet-based, international hospitality-exchange service network, providing members around the world to coordinate contacts and home accommodation with each other). He is an English gentleman full of fun, typically reserved at the same time. The most amazing highlight of his life probably should be the fact that he is incredibly cosmopolitan, a well-experienced global trotter. During the past 11 years, he has already set foot on the shores of 52 countries (the number is still mounting), which undoubtedly makes him a legendary hero. In all honesty, Eyan is not the type of guy who is ready to steal the limelight and easy to spot among a mass of people, but still he is nothing but special. Uniqueness and bravery are all he has got in the first-aid kit. Throughout our conversations, he remained so sure about himself and all my efforts to dampen his pride ended in vain. Curiously, I asked him where his firm confidence came from. Eyan blew my mind by answering that he had never admired other people's lives or imagined himself to be someone else. He enjoys being himself and believes what he is up to right now is the most meaningful thing in his best interest. To him, later on I assume, that travelling itself is rewarding enough. He is completely into his everyday experiences——people who he meets along the trips, breath-taking sceneries, unfadable hopes, tempting joys... He keeps extracting the best that life can offer from the world unknown, which in the eyes of many looks dangerous and scary. Only the very first person to try the tomato knows exactly how delicious it tastes, because his/her feeling is unprecedented, hence unbeaten. Likewise, vanguards from any field enjoy to themselves the exclusive happiness of crying out “Voila!” while copycats only get to claim the leftover.

So, better choose the road less travelled…

More often than not, we are trapped in the spiral of self-doubt and frightened of our own dreams. We are dying to be somebody but forever hesitating to take the first step from the pathetic identity of nobody. Despair and helplessness keep smoldering inside of us. In the end, we can't help feeling frustrated and disappointed. Then self-confidence is draining until it is completely gone.

It is human nature for one to attempt to predict his or her fate, consciously or subconsciously, no matter how lame a fortune teller he or she actually is. Some people consequently fall victim to their self-spun miserable illusion. The truth is, however, you will never know if you never try.

Being young and naive, we wishfully hold there are infinite tomorrows, awaiting us to waste and squander. Everything that matters hugely is being taken for granted. Few of us ever make plans, and those who do have schedules never bother to follow them thoroughly. I have in my life heard too many people complaining about their crumbling dreams and shattered faith. "If I knew then what I know now...I should have done..." Well, my dear friends, the cruelty of reality determines there is no leeway or turning back when the die is already cast.

Be a dreamer and fill your dreams with feasible plans instead of starry eyed fantasies. If you are tired of the current life style and find yourself stuck in a rut, do not dilly dally and step out of the comfort zone for a change. Work on your sensitivity and never allow numbness to get the upper hand, for the wealth of the mind is the only true wealth —— the single piece of belonging that nobody else can ever take away from you. One precious lesson I learned from Eyan is, it takes real courage to break the inertia of ease and to achieve something big. Faint hearts do not only lose fair ladies but eventually, everything.

In some way, everyone in the world is a traveller with different focuses and destinations. No matter what transfer stations we are passing by, the ability to maintain direction savvy is decisive among all the indispensable skills. Once you are sure about the person you desire to turn into, please hurry to meet him or her. Meanwhile, cherish and relish the moment, cause tomorrow never comes.

It was my greatest pleasure getting to know both of you, Ya-Chu and Eyan. And I think my dream tonight and many nights after won't be haunted by nightmares anymore...

Attention, Taiwan! Sarah is stretching out her arms to give you a warm and big hug!!

Sarah in Taiwan (A)

As a mainlander who's currently studying in Taiwan, I find my school life full of unexpected ups and downs. The very moment our plane landed on the ground of Kaohsiung, my whole body couldn't help trembling —— not because of the chilly (it's hot here actually) weather but the strong sense of identity crisis suddenly aroused in me: Being the "First Generation" means you are now out of your comfort zone and have to watch your back non-stop.

That sounds tough, huh?

Yet even though life is not as easy, cheerful hearts can always find a way to entertain themselves： The funniest part is now Sarah enjoys being treated as a FOREIGNER in a place where most people speak the same language as hers——mandarin Chinese. How sarcastic!

The first image Taiwan left me was pretty puzzling (maybe I'm kind of used to ppl yelling at me? bah...): People in Kaohsiung are so polite that I sometimes have to remind myself to stay lady-like and behave elegantly. Here, you don't need to be a high-brow to be refined and well-mannered. No matter from what family background you were raised up, speaking in a soft&gentle way is a MUST, and nice smiles also hit the spot.

As for other stuff, please read an e-mail I wrote in reply to a Canadian friend who asked me about my life details in Kaohsiung. Enjoy!

Hola back Maja,

I'd love to help you get to know Kaohsiung better though I myself am not very familiar with it yet. It struck me the other day that we can actually invite some friends to build up a group on MSN or Skype where people could be more active in sharing experiences and exchanging personal feelings. Of course "life exploring in Kaohsiung" would be the theme. What do you say?

As for my view on the city, the very first image it left me was quite friendly. People speak gently and they seem ready to help others out 24-7. Later on, different aspects of it were gradually revealed, and be them lovely or not, the city of Kaohsiung still remains an interesting place for foreigners like you and me to come for a visit. Also if you are a gourmet, those eyes-dazzling food sold on various night bazzars or night fairs will absolutely satisfy your appetite. Even a glance over the delicacies would be a feast for the eyes.

OH AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, IT'S DEFINITELY WARMER HERE THAN IN CANADA!!! Actually I was thinking the word WARM was too weak to describe the weather in Kaohsiung. THE SUN NEVER SLEEPS HERE! It can get super hot, like keep-your-body-soaking-wet-all-day-long hot. Imagine that! hahaha, no matter what, I'd say I fancy Kaohsiung, the sunny capital of Taiwan (sometimes mixed feelings are stirred up I have to admit). Anyway, at least it's easier for someone who has TAN CRAZE to realize his or her dream ;-)

One possible advice would be: Don't work your expections up too much. With all its charm and charisma, however, Kaohsiung cannot be really regarded as a sleepless metropolis. Night life here could be a struggle. Hehe, unless you own a car and are able to drive it around as you like. Barbecuing alongside the Love River would be a nice choice or bar-hopping if you are staying right in the center of those newly-developed districts, "Xin Juejiang" for example. Of course shopping malls and restaurants would serve as supplements to fill one's void. Kaohsiung citizens enjoy their leasure time thoroughly and you will quickly fit into the society if you also take a shine to the easy and laid-back lifestyle here.

Last but not least, there are young people everywhere, even in the nursing home I guess? hehe...They love exercising here and you should always be careful when you meet an old person. Remember: they are simply mellow but not senile!

Hopefully you found this helpful and if possible, we can hang out sometime after you guys have arrived.

Will keep you posted with what's new here and interesting places to go.

Best regards,

Sarah

A new day has already unrolled and I'm about to go to sleep. Even dreams here are intriguing....Wanna know more? PLS STAY TUNED!

I'm Back and I'm Thinking!

Hello everyone, Sarah is back!

Don't know whether this is too late but"Frohes neues Jahr!"

I cannot believe it the curtain of 2009 has already been lifted! Where did all the time go?

Anyway, here is a list of my New Year resolutions. Sit tight and enjoy!

First, Sarah will lose at least 20 pounds!!! Bite me, you cowardly losers!

Second, she'll make sure her application process go on smoothly. Hey, Scholarship!!

And finally Sarah is going to find a sweetheart(male pls...). Oh wait...She won't let anything get into her friendship with others though. Sarah can handle both, whoopee!

Yay and Whee! GUYS PLEASE JOIN ME! Sarah has got her momentum back!

I think, therefore I am. And life for me is always becoming never being!

Watch your back! Sarah the conqueror is coming!

Head Giddiness and Heart Palpitation

What mentioned in the title I guess is called love.

A feeling that I always dream of experiencing in vain.

Giddiness and palpitation never strike me hand in hand. I mean properly speaking, I am groggy like hell right now but the thing is my heart remains sober while my head is well inebriated, not the other way round when people are madly in love.

I had some alcohol earlier today to drive away my numbness but only to find a lousy mood simply wouldn't dissolve no matter how strong the solvent is.

And I'm so sorry, dear friends, for the unannounced breach of my former promises, like talking via skype at an appointed time or hanging out and cooking together with someone. Not quite myself recently...However, please don't take it the wrong way...Just blame it on my unstable mental status and have mercy.

Vielen Dank.

I'll be away for a couple of days and hopefully back soon with a changed mood.

You guys take care in the post-Christmas era. And never forget I miss you all the time.


yours forever,

Sarah

Things That I Do Know

Sometimes Sarah is a total jerk and she doesn't even know her brain from her esophagus.

Too much sesame cream makes one's body inflate(try explode?).

People you know from Skype could be incredibly cool or crappy.

You'll die before your foes fall in love with you(vendetta or venom never vanish easily).

Self-pity sucks. When there's no turning around, face the music!

Time and women wait for no men.

Compliments are some kind of perfume to smell but not to drink.

What really counts is "a matter of tact" instead of "a matter of fact".

The moment you hold yourself to be brilliant is probably the moment you are deemed to be stupid.

Say something wise or say nothing at all.

Never try to outsmart your audience.

Don't be afraid of changes. You keep changing anyway.

He who says it's ok if you leave him may be the one who loves you the most.

Nothing beats the feeling when there's something to look forward to.

Once you've got a loving family, life is promising, no matter what.

Just Because It Is Doesn't Mean It Should Be

Some people never get why we need reasons to justify ourselves. They maintain that the causes do not matter since the world only focus its eyes on the results, so we may as well keep our mouths shut and clam up.

But really? Is that the way how things work? To be honest, I do hate explanations, especially when I have done something wrong and got unspeakable embarrassment burning inside. Nevertheless, reasons are much different from lame excuses or pointless cop-outs that one concocts to pin guilt on others. They are required if we want to straighten the messed-up situations out and compensate for those who we care about but somehow hurt.

I have a pal who had always argued he needed no reasons from me but later it proved he was only talking the talk. Whenever I was busy and couldn't make time to keep him posted, he'd be sulky and threatened an end of our friendship. I finally figured it out that I'd better give him an entire laundry list of the reasons for my IRRESPONSIBLE absence before he turned his back on me forever. And I succeeded, after the nerve-breaking effort I payed in explaining. I kept my mouth running for a full hour until he was altogether convinced and decided to grant me my immunity.

Ay! How come someone never practises what he preaches！

Maybe the REASON is "well-put explanations" are the safety net we weave to protect ourselves and prevent our beloved ones from poorly-informed misunderstanding. Although it's certainly no use crying over spilt milk but we still have every right to be told how the bowl got upset. In most cases, people need to understand what's going on before they come to terms with it.

No one would willingly accept something ugly unless there is a reason. Simply human beings' instinct.

It reminds me of some logic fallacy that concerns the misuse of facts——Just because it is doesn't mean it should be. So we have to make ourselves conscious of what makes the bad things happen and then come up with a solution to avoid it.

Next time you make me mad, don't panic, just stay patient and explain. You have my words that I, as long as the reason stands, will not throw a fit but understand.

Yes, I can't live without mood-repairing explanations and admit it or not, you guys need them too...